¸¸.•*¨*•♫♪ Melody : Airplanes

Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars?
I could really use a wish right now wish right now wish right now
Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars?
I could really use a wish right now wish right now wish right now

Dreaming.
Of falling
Dreaming
Of falling

Ya let's pretend like it's '98
Like I'm eating lunch off of Styrofoam trays
Trying to be the next rapper coming out the A
Hoping for a record deal to ignore my pain
Now let's pretend like I'm on a stage
And when my beat drops everybody goes insane
Okay
And everybody know my name
And everywhere I go people wanna hear me sing
Oh yeah and I just dropped my new album
On the first week I did Five-Hundred Thousand
Gold in the spring and diamond in the fall
And then a world tour just to top it all off
And let's pretend like they called me the greatest
Selling out arenas with big ass stages
And everybody loved me and no one ever hated
Let's try to use imagination

Okay let's pretend like this never happened
Like I never had dreams of being a rapper
Like I didn't write raps up in all of my classes
Like I never used to run away into the blackness
Now let's pretend like it was all good
Like I didn't live staring in a notebook
Like I did the things that I probably knew I should
But I ain't have neighbours that's why they call it hood
Now let's pretend like I ain't got a name
Before they ever call me BOB aka Bobby Ray
I'm talking back before the mix-tapes
Before the videos and the deals and the fame
Before the ever once compared me to Andre
Before I ever got on myspace
Before they ever noticed my face
So let's just pretend and make wishes out of airplanes

And it seems like yesterday it was just a dream
But those days are gone they're just memories
And it seems like yesterday it was just a dream
But those days are gone

Alright let's pretend Marshall Mathers never picked up a pen
Let's pretend things would have been no different
Pretend he procrastinated, had no motivation
Pretend he just made excuses that were so paper thin they could blow away with the wind
Marshall, you're never gonna make it makes no sense to play the game there ain't no way that you'll win
Pretend he just stayed outside all day and played with his friends
Pretend he even had a friend to say was his friend
And it wasn't time to move and schools weren't changing again
He wasn't socially awkward and just strange as a kid
He had a father and his mother wasn't crazy as shit
And he never dreamed he could rip stadiums and just lazy as shit
Fuck a talent show in a gymnasium, bitch, you won't amount to shit quit daydreaming kid
You need to get your cranium checked you thinking like an alien and just ain't realistic
Now pretend they ain't just make him angry with this shit
And there was no one he could even aim when he's pissed it
And his alarm went off to wake him but he didn't make it to the Rap Olympics
Slept through his plane and he missed it
He's gon' have a hard time explaining to Hailie and Lainie these food stamps and this WIC shit
Cause he never risked shit he hoped and he wished it but it didn't fall in his lap so he ain't even here
He pretends that

Airplanes in the night sky like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now wish right now wish right now
Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars?
I could really use a wish right now wish right now wish right now<

--B.O.B Ft. Hayley Williams & Eminem - Airplanes

Reaching the bottom...

If life was a jelly gem jar and the gem would represent the things you have related to the things you wanted I would end up with one of those old crusted jars that has some old hard gem on the side. Even if it tastes sour i love it. Even if I know that there is no more gem I keep hoping that for some divine intervention it would magically refill itself... and it will not

Things will never be the way they were. I should man up suck it and get on doing something else but I can't, my emotions are the things that actually make me feel real and on the right path. I just lose faith so easily...

This is how i feel somethings.

I know it is not right to feel this way but i do... and even tho i have a lot of things i feel that those things are not the things i need. I tell myself that all good artists have been through a very rough time and that was the reason why they became who they are. Feeling bad has a good side, you get to push yourself in order to exit this state. I don't want to feel bad, truth is that I don't know what I want... does anyone?

Hawaii 25 February 2013 19:34!

p.s. I miss you so much Honolulu!